Hello There

I was released from the hospital two days ago.  It appears I have had a relapse of a sickness western doctors like to call “chronic”.  In fact, they were sure to tell me on at least two counts this visit that it doesn’t go away.  I suppose they found it necessary to do this because I was so shocked at having relapsed.  It was the last thing I was expecting, you see, because of the lifestyle I have been trying to diligently lead for the past few years. (Key word: trying) And because of the underlying belief I hold fast to, which says I can definitely heal myself, which I made no qualms about sharing.

It has been a few years since this old foe has appeared, but actually I do not consider it a foe any longer.  I feel it is simply a part of myself which calls for my love and tenderness.  It calls for attention.  It calls for balance.  These beautiful crafts which I have been honing for just a couple of precious years are a world unto themselves in which I am still an infant.  And as many years as I’ve been  struggling and learning to attain this balance with my body, it has never been enough for total health. People are whole, after all.  And so we are here.

The new thing about this (than before, that is), is that I am now fully aware that this is quite probably a good thing.  There is just no way for me to see how it will look yet. It will probably open some new path for my life which requires the growth that will be the outcome of this current struggle.  The seedling must sprout through the point of highest pressure, to break through the casing, of course.  I can actually say that despite the pain, I look forward to what wonderful lessons I will learn, and be able to share.

It is for this reason I am starting this log of my journey to health.